The past week has flown by. Between classes and my new internship I really haven’t had the time or energy to think about posting. My internship is going well and I am enjoying myself. I get to park in a parking garage and walk through a giant office complex to get to our work space, it makes me feel all important. It is quite a stark contrast to working on the farm.
Yesterday I emailed the woman who owns the company and told her that I was transgendered. This morning I received an email from her saying that she had no issue with my being trans and that she actually has several close friends who are transgendered. I am relieved and happy that more and more people are becoming familiar with and accepting of transgendered individuals. If you want to check out some of the jewelry I will be making the company is called We Dream In Colour, the picture above is of some of their amazonite necklaces. Who knows, if you buy something maybe it will be something I worked on. 😉
I have noticed that It is much easier to cry now than it was before I started hormones. I was watching an adorable anime about a wolf and a lamb who become friends and at the end I just started bawling. I hadn’t cried like that since I was a little kid. My skin tends to get dry a lot more than it used to, it is incredibly soft but I need to make sure I use a moisturizer or else it can begin to itch.
It has been 2 or 3 weeks since I had my last electrolysis appointment and my facial hair is growing noticeably faster. I am having to shave every 1 or 2 days to keep up with the stubble and it is a little disappointing that my reduction isn’t as noticeable after stopping treatment. It seems I am not as far along as I had hoped, but that is something I need to talk to my electrologist about.
Something that recently came up in discussion at my university’s lgbt group was the topic of the Massachusetts transgender equal rights bill. Often referred to as the bathroom bill. Up until this point I have steered clear of political topics but today I am going to give my opinion on the bill.
Bill H.502, An Act Relative to Transgender Equal Rights, focuses on amending previous anti-discrimination laws to include transgender individuals and prevent discrimination based on gender expression and identity.
You can read the actual text of the bill here on the Massachusetts legislature website.
The part of the bill that has been the center of attention is section 18 which states the following:
SECTION 18. Said section 92A of said chapter 272, as so appearing, is hereby further amended by inserting the following sentence at the end of the second paragraph:-
Notwithstanding the provisions of this section or any other special or general law to the contrary, all otherwise lawfully sex-segregated facilities, accommodations, resorts and amusements shall grant persons admission to and the full enjoyment of such facilities, accommodations, resorts and amusements consistent with their gender identity or expression.
You may not understand the legal language of this section but it basically grants transgendered individuals access to the private facilities of the gender they identify as. In other words, a male to female person would have the right to use a woman’s restroom, locker room, or any other female-only facility. The opposite goes for female to males.
The primary argument of those who oppose this bill is that it would allow men who were not transgendered to dress in feminine attire and enter the women’s restroom, shower, or locker room with the intent of harming the women or children inside.
I wholeheartedly agree that we should consider the safety of biological woman and children, but this bill will make it no easier for predators to enter the women’s room than it already is. As it is now, should a male predator wish to enter the women’s restroom with the intent of harming others, no amount of legislation would deter them from entering. Nothing is stopping them from dawning female clothes and using the women’s room under current legislation, so why would giving protection to transgender people have any effect on the likelyhood that a non-transgender male would enter the women’s room with ill intent? Furthermore, granting protection to transgender individuals would give no protection to predators in a court of law because any privilege they had would be irrelevant upon violating another persons rights.
The reason why section 18 is in the bill is that some transgender people are being forced to use the bathroom of their birth sex in public or in the workplace. This can be extremely embarrassing and traumatizing for the individual. If a person identifies as female, takes hormones to change the chemistry of their body, dresses in a female manner, and looks completely female, does it make sense to force them to enter the men’s room to go to the bathroom? That would expose them to an unnecessary amount of danger and undoubtedly cause more disruption of the peace. If you were to enter the men’s restroom and see a person that looked completely female, how would you react? would you continue on with your own business thinking nothing of it? Or would you feel uncomfortable and potentially question them on why they are in the men’s room. Likewise, if a predator were to enter the men’s room and see a transgendered female, what are the chances that he would potentially attack her?
I think the reality of the situation is pretty clear in that this bill should be passed in one form or another, even if section 18 needs to be revised to discourage abuse of the law. The reason why I am talking about the bill is that I recently emailed one of my state representatives with a brief message stating that I wanted his support in passing the bill. I received a sizable email detailing his stance on the matter in which he cited the common argument that it could endanger women and children. In response to his email, I composed a message detailing my stance on the issue and included a variation of the points I’ve stated here. I went on to profess a desire to personally meet with him to discuss the matter of transgender rights and to gain a better understanding of each other’s standpoints.
Whether or not he actually considers meeting to discuss the issue, I hope that my argument will have some impact on him.
I think that is enough political talk for one day,
Have a good evening!
Here it is!
My 13 month timeline update. I was practicing with some makeup yesterday and I decided I looked so good I needed to take a picture and it was the perfect time to add a new picture to my timeline! I took a hand full of other pictures I will upload into a new gallery later. The first thing I noticed was that my cheeks and chin/jaw line have gotten a lot softer. My face in general has rounded out since raising my dose to 4mg of Estradiol.
Things have been going pretty good for me lately, I am keeping up with my school work and I just got an internship at a small jewelry studio. I emailed the woman who owns the company several weeks ago and finally heard back last weekend. I went in on Wednesday to meet with her and talk about what I would be doing and I guess things went well so I will be starting on Monday. She doesn’t know that I am transgendered yet but I think she won’t have a problem with it. It may not be pertinent that I tell her but I think it is important to be open with a potential future employer. Once things get going I will talk a little more about it.
Tomorrow I am going into Boston with my girlfriend to do some photography so I may have something interesting to talk about later this week.
It’s been just over a month since I doubled my estrogen dose and I have been seeing some significant changes, my breasts have noticeably grown and they are much rounder. My bust size has increased by 0.75″ which is the fastest they’ve grown yet. Hip growth is also coming along nicely. Up until this point I was taking 2mg estradiol orally and the other 2mg sublingually(dissolved under the tongue) but from this point on I am just going to take all 4mg sublingually. In the case that it does raise my e levels too much I can always lower my dose slightly.
Here are my other measurements:
Upper Arm Circumference: 12.25″
Forearm Circumference: 10.25″
I am going to try and update my facial timeline soon.
Until next time,
Live Long and prosper,
I apologize for not getting this up sooner, I have been sick for the past week and I have been trying to edit a wheel throwing video I wanted to post. For now you get a picture of me shooting a banana. So instead of going out on my 365th day on hormones I went with my girlfriend and some of our friends to the ceramics studio and did some wheel throwing. I uploaded the video of me throwing below. It is a long video but I don’t think I did half bad considering I only learning how to throw 2 weeks prior. Don’t mind the gay banter in the background.
I have been really busy with school lately, especially photography. Today I spent 8 hours developing film and making prints in the darkroom. It is pretty exciting once you get the hang of it. This week we had our first speech due in public speaking but I wasn’t there because I was sick. I am pretty nervous about speaking in front of a class even though I’ve gotten a lot of confidence from living full time. There is just something unsettling about showcasing my voice which is the one part of me that I feel is the least polished. On the bright side, my teacher is extremely nice and my voice may actually get better from speaking in front of people. I may even do a speech about being transgendered and pull out my man voice.
Today I had my 3rd laser treatment, it looks like there is a little bit of reduction of the darker hairs. I will post some pictures to show the change soon. Things are continuing to go well since I raised my dose to 4mg of Estradiol, I haven’t had a ton of breast growth but they look and feel fuller. After a year on hormones my libido is significantly less than what it was before I started.
When I get some free time I am going to take a new picture to update my timeline so we can see how I look now compared to how I looked in the beginning. And on that note I am going to leave you and probably fall asleep on the couch.
A photo my brother took of Sam taking a photo of me taking a photo of the sun in the trees
I just wanted to give a quick little update on everything thats been happening. I have been pretty busy between classes, therapy meetings and my electrolysis appointments. Oh, and having a girlfriend, that DEFINITELY takes up some of my time!
All in all I am feeling pretty good about things, starting the semester as Abbey seems to have gone off without a hitch. I am consistently being maam’d and called by female pronouns all the time. I’m even starting to get used to using the women’s room multiple times a day. Though it is still weird seeing someone in the women’s room who used to know me as a boy.
Classes are going well, the two I am really excited about are Wheel-throwing and Darkroom Photography. I’ve already gotten some practice time in on the wheel and I’ve got a good 7 or so pieces done so far. I am working on a tea set I want to send to my cousin ella who is in Korea right now. I’ve shot one roll of film for my photo class already and I am excited to start developing them and seeing how my pictures came out. I am going to get really into finding some cool spots to photograph with the 35mm.
I have been gaining a bit of weight recently, today I hit 186 on the scale. For a while I was hovering around 180 but maybe the increased dose of estrogen is encouraging that extra weight. We will see how it effects my other measurements if it continues. For those of you who don’t know, I am literally weighing myself at least 3-5 times a week. My transition notebook is mostly full of my almost-daily weight measurements. I do this in hopes to capture as much data as I can.
On another note, my electrolysis appointment went well yesterday, it hurt like an angry raccoon but she managed to get all the thick and dark hairs. Hopefully it gets easier from this point on. We have weekly appointments booked all the way into December so lets hope I am mostly hair free by then!
Finally we get to the big thing I wanted to talk about, tomorrow marks my 1 year anniversary of starting HRT. I am pretty excited that I made it through one year already. It seemed to fly right by, and it seems the best parts are only just beginning! I don’t have anything special planned for the day tomorrow, I may go visit some friends of my girlfriend and hang out in Salem for the evening. I’m sure it will be a night to remember.
In my last few words I would like to thank everyone who has checked out my site, and especially those who come back to see what I am doing. It means a lot to me.