Guess what time of the year it is?

That’s right, surgery time! It is starting to become a thing that I get surgery in December. It’s mostly due to my work schedule.

Anyways welcome! It’s been a long time since my last post about orchiectomy and I thought this was the perfect time to update. It is currently 5:33am and I am headed into the city for my breast augmentation surgery.

It’s been in the works for about 7 months now and I am nervous and excited that it’s finally getting done!

My surgery is scheduled for 8am but I have to be there at 6. Getting up early isn’t my strong suit, but for this I make an exception. For those who are interested I am getting a sub-glandular(above the muscle) augmentation with 500 and 550cc silicone gel implants. Since I am so tall this should look pretty proportional. I am getting them above the muscle because my job is so physical I would be constantly squishing them and they probably would not heal very well.

Other then that my life has been pretty status quo. I’m still working at a music theatre and living at home. So without further adieu I am going to sit and rest for the next 2 hours until my surgery.


110% recovered!

Howdy y’all.

I can say I am completely healed from having Orchiectomy in December and things have been good. I had no complications from the surgery and was back at work within a week or two doing light duty activities.

I don’t have to take Spironolactone anymore (yay!) and I only have to take 2mg of estrogen daily.

As far as my results go I feel mostly the same as before. Sans-testes obviously. Libido has decreased a bit. The incision is pretty discreet and if you didn’t know better you’d think it wasn’t even there. My general mood is better.

Other than that I’ve just been working a lot. Saving money, playing 7 days to die. It’s funny I hate zombies, but enjoy this game a lot. Probably because there is a lot of crafting and building involved. I’m also an admin on a friends server so there is that.

Finally I have some MORE exciting news! I have a consultation for breast augmentation on the 27th. Hopefully that goes well. I really want to finally get these surgeries done. I’ve been sitting in one place in life for a few years now and it is time I made some positive growth. I am starting to look ahead in life, just as you should.

Until next time,



Just a little update, I am home and feeling great! The surgery went off without a hitch and now I recover for a while. P. S.  Jock straps are uncomfortable! 

Still alive!  And with exciting news. 

Well here we are again,

 It’s always such a pleasure.

 Remember when I tried to

 Update more? 

I dropped the ball on that account and seem to have reverted to yearly update. No matter, i have some incredibly exciting news!  Tomorrow I am having my orchiectomy!  That’s right, no more spironolactone and no more pesky balls to drop. I have been incredibly lucky to have access to a wonderful team of doctors in Boston who have come together to provide care for transgender patients. Likewise in Massachusetts in most cases insurance is required to cover gender confirming surgeries. 

I am excited and nervous at the same time, which I think is to be expected. The fact that I am finally having one of the surgeries I’ve longed for is unbelievable. 
For anyone who doesn’t know what an orchiectomy is, it is the removal of the testicles. The benefits to this are that you no longer have to take testosterone blockers, they are no longer physically in the way, and the obvious psychological benefit of being closer to how you feel inside.
All in all I am doing pretty well. My mood has been mostly stable and I’ve been working full time, keeping myself busy. Tomorrow or this weekend I will be sure to post another update about how things went. Wish me luck!! 


Also.. 100th post, woo! 

Insert Witty Title Here

Greetings and salutations my fine denizens.

I’ve been AWOL for a literally 5 days short of a year. Honestly things have been up and down pretty frequently but I am in a pretty positive state right now. Aside from work and the occasional social engagement I have been spending much of my time playing video games. There really isn’t time for much more when you work in theater. The good news is I am making several dollars more than I was last year and that means a lot when the owner is kind of a scrooge.

But I digress, I just wanted to let y’all know that I am still alive and kicking, I hate to make empty promises but I am going to try try TRY my hardest! *fingers crossed* To make more frequent blog posts. I think it will help get the thoughts out of my head and relieve some of my stress.

In conclusion here is the most recent Ask Abbey question I received, I think it addresses some legitimate concerns many of us face/have faced at some point in transition.


Q:  So as we all know you get constant messages, I just wanted to ask a couple questions which I feel no TRANS chat site have answered or anything, I am currently going through electrolysis on my face, I’m about 20 hours in, I too am a red head so laser didn’t work and I wasted 10 months doing it to have little effect and it has put me at a broken point as now I am doing electrolysis 3 – 4 hours a week. I don’t have the confidence to present fully female like I used to due to my facial hair having to grow for treatment.

I have been on HRT for 7 months now so in my mind I feel I’m falling behind and it will affect my chances of SRS on my one year mark of HRT incase the Doctor feels I am talking steps backwards due to dressing in less feminine cloths for electrolysis but still present as SHE and BROOKE etc, if that makes sense.

I feel I’m in a bad state of mind. Will the hair go away? Will I be hair free? Am I going to be able to go back to presenting full time as myself?

A: Hello Brooke,
Those are all understandable concerns in your current position. First off since you are on HRT and actively going through your transition, there is no falling behind, When I was doing electrolysis I was only doing 1 hour per week. it is okay if things don’t go as fast as you expected them to.

When I started HRT I was gung ho to get on a full dose. As you may or may not know I had a set back and had to go off estrogen for a number of months and it felt like an eternity; but I got through it and looking back it really didn’t make that big of a difference. I also wanted to have had breast surgery, an orchiectomy, changed my SS, and change my passport by now but I still haven’t done those things. I get really upset about it and beat myself up for not motivating myself to get these things done but it is scary to make those unknown steps. It really is. Lately I have been trying to push myself and move forward with my goals, one step at a time.

Fact of the matter is I think having SRS after only one year of being on HRT is a bit soon, especially with all the changes you are going through. Waiting a little longer is not going to hurt your quality of results. But regardless of time frame you will absolutely be able to present and be yourself. Nothing can stop you.

Honestly it took me a long time before I was confident enough to present as female when I was alone in public. Hell, I still get nervous going into public restrooms and it’s been over 5 years. I don’t think you need to worry about falling behind.

I hope this gives you some peace of mind!


p.s. I really don’t get that many emails 😛

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