Day 863 – Just Another Day

Q: Been a while since you posted anything. How are you doing?
Sierra

A: I have been doing alright, thank you. Now that you mention it, it has been quite a while since I posted anything, 212 days to be exact.

Today’s soundtrack provided by Oingo Boingo.

The last time I posted anything was right around the time I was working at the music theater. I stopped doing work there when the fall semester started, but I learned quite a bit about metalwork and carpentry while I was there. It was definitely a positive experience. Now onto the present.

To be completely honest, the past four months have been hell. I will give you the incredibly abridged version as you probably don’t want to hear all the details. I started out doing okay in the semester but things quickly went downhill. I was having a hard time focusing on my work and slowly stopped going to classes, one-by-one. Throughout this my girlfriend and I were growing further and further apart. Something was missing and we were not meeting each other’s needs. We tried some different things but it wasn’t working.

I ended up failing all of my classes and things eventually culminated in our separation. It is still painful for me to think about it, and I loved her very much, but I have no choice but to move on. The future holds better things and I already see a light in the black.

Since the break up, I’ve been able to explore another side of myself in alternative lifestyle. It’s something that I’ve been interested in for a long time and I am glad to be able to now. For the record I am being responsible in my explorations and I would appreciate it if any family who read this keep to themselves or contact me privately.

Now, do you remember that light in the dark I was talking about? Well I’ve met someone wonderful who I’ve been seeing for the past month. We get along quite well and we just naturally meld. I will post a picture of us from new years.

Transition-wise there isn’t a whole lot to say. I’ve been living life as myself for over two years now and though there has been some rough water I am genuinely glad I transitioned. At the moment I am switching my anti-depressant to Zoloft in the hopes that it will help more than the Effexor and lower my anxiety levels. I am slowly realizing that my social anxiety is the root of a lot of inner turmoil. It will be at least a couple weeks until I know if that does anything for me.

That just about sums it up, I am taking two classes this semester, trying to keep my course load light. I want to try to get back into some creative hobbies such as music or chainmail as an outlet. Lets let this year be better than the last!

Abbey

(My girlfriend and I)
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About gingertrap

I am a mtf transgender girl. I want to document my experiences with hormone treatment and help educate other transgirls of their effects as well as the daily struggles of being a human being.

6 responses to “Day 863 – Just Another Day”

  1. Jen says :

    LOVE that dress on you! Good luck on getting life a little more stabilized and back on track. xo

  2. Tara says :

    Glad to hear that you are keeping well. I love your inspiring site and hearing that your life’s journey is progressing in the right direction. Looking after yourself. Tara xxx

  3. Jay says :

    Good to hear from You, wondered how You were doing, Good luck with everything 🙂 It’s taken Me a while to get the med’s right, You both look soo happy, all the best, take care, Jay xx

  4. Sierra says :

    Abbey, thanks for keeping your readers informed.. So sorry about the breakup. I hope you and your girlfriend find what each of you need in each other and that your anxiety calms down. Cheers,
    Sierra

    P.S. You look AMAZING!! Congrats on getting the body you’ve always wanted – I think you’re officially hot stuff!

  5. gingertrap says :

    Thank you everyone, your kind words mean a lot. I will try to keep things a little more updated from now on. 🙂

  6. chloemadison says :

    I need to know where you got that dress.

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